i will Stand my Ground

Hi there,

i have been putting a playlist together with some songs to remind me to put my trust in the Lord, fix my eyes on Jesus and to -no matter what happens- never ever give up fighting..

Today i like to share one of those songs i recently added to the playlist. It's "Stand my Ground" by Within Temptation. i would like to share the lyrics and jot down some thoughts about what it means to me and how i like to interpret it.

Within Temptation - Stand my Ground

i can see when you stay low nothing happens. Does it feel right?

Late at night, things i thought i put behind me, haunt my mind
i just know there's no escape now once it sets its eyes on you

but i won't run, have to stare it in the eye..

Lately i have had a lot on my mind, things that scare me. And i really really wish i could just walk away from it. But i know i can't. Some things are memories i've tried to forget for years. Others are thoughts, feelings, that i can not exactly explain. The feelings & thoughts are too vivid & all-consuming to just rationalize them away. But since there's no simple explanation for those thoughts and feelings i'd rather just hide myself and bury those thoughts with me. i have done that before. And it helps for some time, but eventually it catches up with me again. So i decided to stop running and start facing 'it'. i am starting to speak up about it and share my thoughts and feelings with someone. It isn't easy, but i know i will.. {back to the song}

Chorus:

Stand my ground, i won't give in

no more denying, i've got to face it

won't close my eyes and hide the truth inside

If i don't make it, someone else will stand my ground

i will stay strong. i know i don't feel like i will be able to stand my ground and those feelings are like way too overwhelming to be able to just let them be and fight my way through it. But i will keep reminding myself that if i don't make it, Someone Else will stand my ground. The Lord will be the one fighting for me, when i can't do it myself. And that's what helps me to not run away again.

It's all around getting stronger, coming closer into my world

i can feel that it's time for me to face it. Can i take it?

i feel like i can not take it. i don't feel much stronger than before when i chose to hide myself away instead of facing my fears. But i also know it's not only about what i can take & what i can face. It's about what the Lord wants me to do. i don't think it's a coincidence those feelings and thougths have become so strong again. i don't believe in coincidences. So i will have to take it as it is and ask the Lord 'what do You want me to do now?'. 

Though this might just be the ending of the life i held so dear,

but i won't run, there's no turning back from here.

i have been running for so long, it will be hard to stop running and let myself be seen & heard. It will be hard to start speeking up and sharing what's on my mind, in stead of just burying it underneath my skin. Yes, it will be hard. But it will also be worth it. So i won't run anymore. i just won't.

(Chorus)

All i know for sure is i'm trying

i will always stand my ground

i don't know how things will turn out. i have no idea if i'll be able to quit running and to start facing those thoughts and feelings. But i don know i will be TRYING. That is all i can do and that is what i will be doing. It comforts me to know that the Lord will be there with me. When i can't go on anymore, He will be the One standing my ground.

(Chorus 2x)

Maybe it sounds strong when i write about not giving up and facing my fears, my thoughts and my feelings. To be honest, i don't feel so strong. i do know this song helps me to get some of my fight back though. For it tells me that giving up and running away won't ever be able to change things. And that in order to grow stronger, i will need to face the obstacles i am experiencing now.

i find hope and comfort in knowing that i won't ever have to face those obstacles on my own.

"When i don't make it, Someone Else will stand my ground"