Song: Don't Be So Hard On Yourself

As the title of this song is the same as my blog's i thought i would share this beautiful song with you. Hope you enjoy it!!! :-)

Don't be so hard on yourself, no
Learn to forgive, learn to let go
Everyone trips, everyone falls
So don't be so hard on yourself, no
'Cause i'm just tired of marching on my own
Kind of frail, i feel it in my bones
Won't let my heart, my heart turn into stone
So don't be so hard on yourself, no

 “Don’t be so hard on yourself” by Jess Glynne

God-confidence

Confidence.. to be honest, i’m not so fond of that word.

People have always been telling me i should get more self-confidence and even in treatment it was one of the main goals they wanted me to reach. Yes. They wanted me to get more confident. But i, myself, not so much.

There’s a lot of reasons why i don’t think i should get more self-confidence. i feel like for me it is not acceptable to be more confident. i am not allowed. (emphasis with exclamation marks... i would not dare to ever think that way about any other person on this planet, in this universe or even in a possible alternate universe!!!) There’s a lot of memories that support my thoughts and feelings about this topic. But i don’t want to go that pathway today.

i'd like to talk about a different kind of confidence. God-confidence.

Today as i was reading in my devotional book, i was asked to finish this sentence:

i have God-confidence today, because …

At first i was like.. uhm yeah. Were to start? Confidence is the kind of word that i’d rather not ever use. i would not even start to dream about being more confident. So why would i have God-confidence? i was not allowed, was i?

But the thing is.. God-confidence is not about me. It is about God. About Him alone.

And so i began to finish the sentence.

It amazed me when i started to truly think about Him and why He is worthy of me putting my trust in Him. Being confident in Him.

Here are some lines of what i wrote:

i have God-confidence today because God is the maker of Heaven and Earth. Because He knows about every little thing that is going on in this world, and every tiny detail that is going in my life today.

He is not “on the outside looking in”.

He knows exactly what is happening in my life right now – the obvious and the hidden away, unknown parts of my life.

God is no outsider. God has more insight into my thoughts, feelings, actions, being, more knowledge of this world,  than i do myself.

Therefore i can be confident in Him. Put my trust in Him.

And know that He cares about this world & me.

Know that He cares for this world & me.

                           

i can have God-confidence today because this world & i are safely wrapped up in the safety and comfort of His presence.

What about you?

How would you finish this sentence:

i can have God-confidence today, because …

i Heart Love Songs

Yes. i just wanted to put this out there.

i heart Love Songs. i LOVE Love Songs. But not because i’m madly in love with a significant other.

No. i am a very happy single. i may not always be happy as Larry, but being single is something i am happy about. So yeah. i have a little bit of a whole load of weirdness (as you most probably would know by now) and i <3 Love Songs. Maybe not all love songs, but there definitely are a couple that i like very much. And i am certainly not intimidated by them. They make me think about Someone very special in my life. my Heavenly Father.

Some love songs amaze me because they remind me of His awesome love and amazing grace for people like you and me.

Lately i have been listening to a song i listened to a lot, when i was in my teens. And it amazed me how happy this song makes me feel. i have been losing sleep about altering the lyrics a bit (which i tend to do very often – both losing sleep and altering lyrics). Here’s what the song Just a Dream by Jump5 says to me:

When i look in Your eyes, i see a whole different world
Like i've never seen before
And when i hear Your voice it's like a song that i can listen to over again
It's amazing how Your loves amazes me
Every time that i'm near You

'Cause Your Love is real
This is my reality, totally insanity
If i could be in Your world
All i wanna do is be with You, be with You
Your love is real

When i picture the world, it takes me to the Son
i think about the way He smiles
As He looks down at us, all He’s done for us
to change this world we’re living in
It's amazing how Your love amazes me
Every time that I'm near you

'Cause Your Love is real
This is my reality, totally insanity
If i could be in Your world
All i wanna do is be with You, be with You
Your love is real

More than my imagination could ever see
Your love is real
If i could be with You

(..)

Maybe it looks like i’m single and all lonely. But i don’t really feel that way. All it takes for me is to look up to the cross, to look up to Heaven and to remind myself of all the Lord has done for me. All He is still doing for me. His grace is sufficient. And so is His love.